I am not the same person I was
From Beth – 
I lost my 23 year old son Matthew on June 12, 2009 due to cancer. It was Osteosarcoma, a very aggressive bone tumor that had spread into his lungs and other part of his body. He only lasted 10 months. His birthday is coming up this Monday, February 8, 2010 and I have no idea how I am going to get through this day. This is the most devastating thing a person can go through; losing a child. I miss my son and I think of him constantly. He suffered so much with this horrible disease and I feel so guilty that he was taken and not me. I understand what you are saying–that your life changes forever. I am not the same person I was prior to his disease and death. My faith is sustaining me, but it is extremely difficult. Matthew was the light of our lives, and he is deeply loved and missed everyday by all who knew him.
im only a few steps behind you on this horrible journey, my son, also 23 passed away jan. 17th of adenocarcinoma. I only got 3 months!!! i was so full of hope and prayers, went unanswered. what good would ever come out of this? what is left to hope for? I had to watch my beautiful baby boy suffer and slip away! Did he hear me tell him how much i love him and how much he meant to me ? could he hear me through the morphine and chemo? does he know how proud he made me eeven when he drove me crazy? i dont know how to live in this world without him. i cnat breathe, i forgotten, he was my rock.
Hello Beth,
My daughter is also 23. She is terminal with osteosarcoma on her sacrum and lower vertebrae.
We do not know how long she has as it is slow-moving in her case, a small mercy.
I am glad your faith is sustaining you. There are a number of books out there about near death experiences which i have found helpful but of course I haven’t faced the trial you are going through yet.
Remember all the good times you had on Feb 8th over the past twenty-three years and remember too that he is missing you today also.
Sorry I can’t sort this for you.
John