I don’t know how to move on
From Robin –
I lost my mom on October 27, 2009 – just a few weeks ago. She was 74 years old. My mom and dad were in a horrible car accident. My father lived but my beautiful mother who was my best friend and whom I loved so much was gone. I don’t know how to get through each day with out her and right now I can’t see a furture without her in it but I know that someday it will get easier. She was the heart and soul of our family and right now we are all ripped apart inside. My parents were married for 51 years and had a wonderful marriage. They were inseparable – always together. My father is so lost without her and blames himself for her death. He keeps saying he was supposed to take care of her and he failed her. It is so hard to try and keep him calm and give him some peace when inside I am just as torn apart as he is. My father had just fought a year long battle with cancer and radiation. He almost died but my mother stayed so close and strong and pulled him through. 3 weeks after he got a clean bill of health this tragedy happened. I know God has his reasons for the things he does but right now I am just so mad at him! All I can think of is her screaming and dying in so much pain and she did not deserve to die this way! I know that this is just a phase of the grieving process but I seem to be stuck in it and I don’t know how to move on. I spoke to my mother every single day – most of the time more than once. We were so close. I do not have any regrets with my relationship with her – she knew how much I loved her and I know how much she loved me. I just miss her so much and don’t know how to go on without her in my life.
I am so sorry for your horrible loss, I know some what how you are feeling in my just two days after my birthday my mom was killed in a horrific house fire. and every day i think of how she must have sufferd and how could god take her that way, my mom was my rock when ever things were hard in my life she was there. and every day I cry for her. I don’t know how to get through this. My hole family broke up over this. they all started fighting over money and stuff and i feel like theres no family left. I am so sorry for you pain and i hope you find some kind of peace.