I lost my past, present and future
From Dee –
Rox
I can’t imagine the pain of losing a spouse, but I can tell you losing your only child like I did, is terrible. Sean was my only child. I lost my past, present and future. He has been gone 2 years and 9 months almost 10 months. This is his 3rd Christmas in heaven. I can say I no longer lose my breath when I think of him, but the pain is still there. We never get over our loss, we go on and live for them. We just get used to it. You come to a point of acceptance. You Hate it but what else do you do. If we could change things we would, but we can’t . Stay open to the pain. Plow your way through it. It will lesson, but never I think go away. You said you have 3 children. How fortunate you are. Concentrate on them. I would give anything to have a piece of my child. To see his eyes in someone else’s face. But as I said he was all I had. So I keep going trying to find my purpose in life, hoping to finding it someday soon. I know in my heart there is something i should do. But I haven’t figured it out yet. Turn to your children, the greatest thing your husband gave you. It is to soon for you to not feel the pain, but it does get somewhat easier. Pra;yers to you on this Christmas morning, don’t give in or up. Still live for your Husband, I’m sure he would want you to right!
