I wonder some days if I can make it through the day
From S.G.
My story begins 9 years ago when I met the love of my life, my soul mate, lover and best friend. We were married for 4 years out of the 9 and the last two we spent overseas in the middle east working building our lives around travel and work. One day like any other day he got up to go to work as so did I and shortly after lunch I got a call from the American Embassy where he was taking care of getting pages put in his passport so we could go on our next greatest adventure. He died of a massive heart attack there in the Embassy within minutes. No warring nothing, he had just had his 52 birthday 5 days earlier. He was the best thing that ever happened to me and I am so lonely and miss him so much that it is hard to get up some days. I am trying everyday as that is what he would want me to do but it is so hard. I am 44 years old and was once a very strong, determined business woman and now I just cry everyday. He has been gone seven weeks and 6 days. I wonder some days if I can make it through the day. I have moved back to the states and this place seems as it is a strange country I am very displaced and lost without him. I sleep with his t-shirt and have only one shirt hanging in the closet which I smell everyday. I will soon have to go back over seas to pack up our house and have it shipped back. I know he is in a perfect place and find comfort in that but I want him back with me. Life is now such a roller coaster and I am so tired all the time.
From S.G.
My husband birthday was Oct. 10 he turned 52 and 5 days later he died unexpectedly of a heart attack. He didn’t suffer he went quick and had never complained about having any pains. We had known each other for nine years and were married for 4 1/2.
I am lost without him and find it so hard at night time. I cry everyday and feel so lost. We lived overseas for a few years and hardly came home to the states. I am now back in the states dealing with this. I am seeing a grief therapist but I have come to know that this journey is something you take by yourself. I have bought a couple of books and read them to find comfort. My heart hurts and I feel so displaced.
dear s.g
I hear you and my love is with you. I too was with the love of my life and soulmate for 10 years. He was never sick and was sleeping and woke up and went into the bathroom. Mins. later i heard a noise and ran into the bathroom and he was on the floor, i did cpr on him for 20 mins. as the ambulance attendant on the phone talked to me waiting for the paramedics to get here. Menno died of a massive heart attack sept.16 and all i do is cry. i keep trying to go forward andget through each day and night and i too sleep with his favorite sweater.
some days i do not think i can get through this,my world and life is shattered but know he would not want me to suffer and would want me to live a living life.i know you pain and i tell you take the time you need and then take some more. i do not know if it gets any easier but i know we need to honor their life by taking the best we shared and recreate from there the best we can.