Somehow we have to embrace this pain, and make it work for us.
From Amy –
My husband died of sudden cardiac arrest Oct 19, 2008, at age 55, no symptoms, it was like a light switch. I preformed CPR, but to no avail. I lost him, as did the medics. I read through all the pain, agony, devastation of our losses, and want to just lay down.
I have done many things in the last year, many. I have tried many things. I come right back to just wanting my old life back, and plan to recreate it as best I can (we had a small ranch, horses & dogs).
My thoughts after more than a year, which I so wanted to reach, is that we just learn to live with the pain.
It is terrible pain, like a chronic disease. We need to get through each day, some good, some bad.
I doubt I will ever recover from this. So, I live with my pain, every day. Family, friends, neighbors, I have all this, but it does not help much, try as they do to help. Somehow we have to embrace this pain, and make it work for us. Not sure how yet. Maybe by the time I reach 75, I will have it figured out.
My husband also died of cardiac arrest on September 15,2009 in his sleep he was 43. Im 40 with a 13 year old son. I hope things won’t be as bad as you say. But I have a feeling they will. Right know things are a living hell. I try to hide my grief from my son and get through the holidays. They seem never ending after New Years is our wedding anniversary in January it would of been our 17th. Then my sons birthday in February. Im just tired of trying to keep things together.