Everyday is a struggle for me
From Val -
I recently lost my mum on the 20th August 2009. She was a wonderful mum and my best friend. She lived with me after my father died in 1988. Mum and I went on holidays together and shopping and spent some wonderful days together. She was diagnosed in September 2005 with pancreatic cancer. She had 6 months of chemo and it worked. The tumour was dormant for 2 years and then in January this year, she was told it was back and that she had one on her lung and a mass on her pelvis. She was given 3 months of chemo and then was told it wasn’t working. She said she didn’t want anymore treatment and tried to live her life, but unfortunately, her illness meant she spent a lot of time in the hospital. The last time was in August. The hospital said they couldn’t do anymore for her so I said I would take her home. The hospital had a bed delivered to my home on the 18th August and I brought her home. She died at home on the 20th August. I can’t come to terms with the fact that she has gone. I miss her so much and I can’t stop crying. I work from home and I know mum would be very upset if she could see how I am. I am trying to work but I can’t stop crying. Everyday is a struggle for me and I can’t believe I won’t see her again.
Val
