I am in the grieving process as well
I am in the grieving process as well. I lost my best friend of 38 years. He was a gentle kind and very responsible man up until he got ill from diabetes which lead to depression and suicide. I am still in love with him even though he felt the need to leave me 7 months before he did what he did. I knew he was going to do it but my children ages 37 35 and 18 though that I was the one with mental issues. As time went on they realize that u can’t same a man from himself. The children still blame me but my husband had tried it 3 times before he finally took himself from the children and me. I saved him 3 times from dying but it came to the point that I couldn’t do it any more. Sleeping with one eye open cost me and him a great price. I just wish that somehow my children stop blaming me anf themselves from his actions which he is totally responsibility for. Well I guess u all get the surface understanding of that I am attempting to express. I will close 4 now and please respond.
Carol
