HELPLESS STILL
By Shaakiera -
Six months ,ten days have passed
yet nothing has changed
time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains
Tears constant
Helpless still…
Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride
not one you enjoy…
but the dreaded kind…
where every uncertain second …
so unkind
one day bearable…
the next, a bottomless pit….
falling
Anger overwhelming
Emptiness always
Helpless still…
Alone… is what you prefer
Push and shove everyone thats dear
out of your life…you want no one near
if you dont love anyone…you cant lose anyone
Patience my answer…
but you wont hear
Your fear suffocating
Cant breathe…
Cant walk…
Cant live…
Helpless still…
Days are awesome …remembering your ANGELS smile…
remembering his antics…
that nearly drove you insane
Days are awesome
as you face lights up with the lost smile that was hidden since that day…
As if not allowed,
suddenly your laughter transforms into a sob…
Heart breaking…
Soul wrenching…
Helpless still…
Sleep does not come easy
Helpless still
Eat…Whats eat?
Helpless still
they say the pain lessens
Who are they?
Helpless still
Questions unanswered
all the why’s you ask…
Helpless still
As you struggle
day by day
hour by hour
i am still here…right beside you…
reminding you …i care…i love you!
