Poetry Contest Entry: I Dreamed Today by Audrey Szabo

I DREAMED TODAY, of my little one first love, first kissed on the cheek, and her first broken heart, and I was saddened because my little one is growing up so fast before my very eyes,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, of my little ones’ first trials and errors and how frighten, I was when she had chosen the wrong path,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, of my little one as she thought she knew more than I, and believed that her friends would guide her on the right path. I worried,  I screamed, and I shared what had happen to me and many of my friends at this very difficult time of growing up,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, of my little one as she is pulling away from me searching for her own way in life. I say to her “take it easy, enjoy life, be careful, and always remember that I, the family and GOD are always here for you,”
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, of my little one as two of her dreams come true, she marries the man of her dreams and gives birth to a little one of her own,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, as my little one’s world comes crashing down all around her. Her perfect dream was falling apart and she chooses to escape it in ways not meant to help her cope but meant to push her further away from herself, her family, her own little one, God and there was nothing I could do to stop it,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, of my little one who decided that she was not good enough for her family, for her little one, or the world. I watch my little one slowly die of  broken dreams and a broken heart, and I cried, and cried for my little one,  for my love is not enough to help her come back to me or us,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY that I reminded my little one how special she is,  how much she has to offer not only to herself, and  to her own little one, but to the world.  I watch as her smile disappeared and her once bright eyes grow duller with each passing day, and neither my words, nor my love nor my arms could ease her pain,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY, that my little one fell asleep, had the sweetest dream and decided that she finally knew where she belongs.  My little one decided that in the ARMS OF GOD is  where she belongs HOME where there is nothing but laughter and love a HOME we all call HEAVEN,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY that I will try to remember that my little one is not suffering anymore, that HEAVEN/HOME is where she chose to go for peace,
AND I PRAYED.
 
I DREAMED TODAY that I must learn to understand, why my little one is no longer with us, and today I did not feel like praying, but I was sure that my little one was praying for us all,
AND SO I PRAYED.    
 
Written By
Audrey Szabo