Thank You for What You Do
May 12th, 2008 . by The Grief BlogHi Gloria -
Archive is such an incredible technology…..and your websites and shows comfort so often and you are a gift to bring this to the cyberspace airwaves when the pain and grief get so overwhelming. The listening to talking is singularly more comforting for me who crave talk and connection and was used to being verbal all day long and with people in my everyday norm.
Thank you for having the dreams that touch all of us that have connected with your show and your amazing bereaved guests who have gone on to find purpose and meaning after the death(s) of their loved ones.
I remember handing you the book from Rosemary and sharing the extra copies I wascompelled to buy after receiving the box from her. The day’s after listening to Cindy Bullens music were powerful gifts. I made copies of this cd for many bereaved mommy friends and gave with the book and even lent out the notebook to a few. It is powerful to be on the receiving end this morning to hear Cindy now just like the morning I listened to the archive of Rosemary’s show with you and Heidi. THANK YOU FOR HAVING HER ON THIS WEEK! It feels like now I get her impetus and powerful messages she connected in words and music.
Without a doubt Cindy’s combination of poignant music lyrics that she has now verbally described “came thru her” are validating what I have said over and over when I sit to write. I don’t have a book in me it is just what I need to write and it is channeled. How the exact experience of fear is not what holds you back but the love is what propels the reality into action…for Cindy a song that is profound, for me just writing an experience.
Today at 2 1/2 years I don’t feel and cannot say I am better than I have ever been yet but it gives me hope that nothing does stop me from attaining or doing what I envision and need to create. I’ll never be the same nor would I want to be, and I am always all ways proud to go on as this Kim that knows the best years of my life were Joseph’s mommy. But this chapter now is living for both of us. My direction in life might be unchartered but I know nothing seems like without a connection to what was or should be now - the same motivation. Then it is a harder hill to climb in these uncomfortable shoes. They hurt enough to not be feeling worse.
I will make the world a better place because we were both here, and maybe someday it will get easier to not feel so alone. I cherish the reality that meeting Rebecca one random morning at Equinox turned into this relationship and profound arm to embrace rolling on this long road of learnign to live again.
Thank you for all you do, all ways, always.
Kim
